i love.

Wow. These past few months have been insane. I haven't been on in forever. It's okay I am still alive. Just dealing with a fair amount of things right now. I needed some time away. Well God has been teaching me a lot. Have you ever noticed we tend to choose the hard way of learning things? We don't see it when God first tries to tell us so it takes Him doing something drastic for us to understand? It's true we are stubborn people. I don't see why we make it sooo difficult. I'm positive it breaks the heart of God. I believe prior to the accident that God was trying to show me some stuff but I was being blind to what He had to say. One thing the Lord really showed me in the healing process after the accident was that I needed to love. I am not sure I will be able to adequately express exactly what I learned. But in case you didn't know I am the type of person that doesn't really trust people or love freely. I don't think that is the heart of God. Jesus has always loved freely so why shouldn't I? In a moments time I could have everything precious to me. I need to not hold back with the people God has placed in my life. But it is soo hard to always remember that and to always give of myself.

top 11 of 2011 :)

I can't believe 2011 is almost over. I have been so busy and I am still super crazy. Anyways. I wanted to post a visual reflection of this year. I did it last year and absolutely loved it! Here it goes....

Ps: these are in noooo order at all :)

1: Going to prom with this boy

2: Becoming a Jr High leader and having the privilege to love the girls :)

3: Celebrating 2 years with my boy and being on a missions trip to SF all in one day!!

4: My last high school retreats

5:Having the privilege to become friends with these people :)

6: Finding out I'm gonna be an auntie again

7: Graduating high school plus getting to go to grad night

8: Performing in millie and gaining amazing friends through it

9: Growing closer with these studly people

10: moments like this with my favorite person on this planet

11: Performing set me free

"And she gave birth to her firstborn son; and she wrapped him in cloths, and laid Him in a manger, because there was no room for them in the in." Luke 2:7

"Little baby, I am a poor boy too. I have no gift to bring that's fit to give a King."

yes.i.am.thankful.thank.you

Well it seems weird that I haven't blogged in a month. Oh how I miss thee Blog World!! Life has been insanely beautifully crazy. I am happy to be back. For however long that is seeing that finals are next week. AHA! Crazy! Anyways I decided not to do a thankful countdown like a I usually do every year for the month of November. Well this weekend made me beyond thankful for everything I have. I have told this story so many times I am tired of telling it. (trust me I will still have to tell a billion people). ANYWAYS!! I was in a car accident on Saturday. Nothing too too major but I will say it opened my eyes. We were hit on the drivers side but head on from the truck. Our drivers window shattered as you can see in the photo. But we are all okay. The driver suffered some head trauma but is doing well.

The point of me talking about this so openly here is that I am thankful for my life right now. I am thankful for my amazing family, friends and boyfriend. Thankful God has given me another day with them.This thanksgiving I have soo much to be thankful for and I give God the glory that this crash wasn't the end for me :)

after the crash. i am aware that i look half dead but who cares..???

the car

Yesterday my sweet boy and I celebrated two and half years together. Time goes by way to fast when you love someone!