Life According To Me: June 2011

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

hi there

how I have wanted to sit and write this for a long time. but I haven't had the strength or the words. I am still not sure I have the words I want to say but I am going to try. I am a writer because I am passionate about it. so I try to write no matter what. anyways I am done with high school. it's weird for me to even say that. i struggled a lot in the beginning. i am not sure how you explain something like this. i guess you have to experience this for yourself.. its sorta a weird pain and joy all wrapped into one. the first week was the hardest. my sister bro in law and nephew returned home after being here for two weeks. and then my oldest brother/best friend moved out. crazy time of crazy change. something I do not welcome at all. three weeks ago the word change would anger me and frustrate me. but something has changed in me these past few weeks of being out of high school. it's a God thing. let's just put it that way. because without him I would still be the girl that became paralyzed when the thought of change crossed her mind. don't get me wrong it is still "hard" at times but I am no longer gripped with fear. i can't really share how this change of heart took place. but I am here. excited to see what God does with me. and trying not to look back but to look forward to the new adventures and the new places I will go.
Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?
Matthew 6:27

prayer request

please pray for my grandpa. my uncles took him to the hospital last night after he got sick throwing up and then went into a state of not remembering things. an hour later my cousin and I went to the hospital to be with our dads and grandpa. while we were there his pulse hung at around 37-40 which is low. by the time we left they were admitting him to ICU. he is still in ICU and we are just waiting. right now my family is wrapped in peace and prayer and we are beyond thankful. please specifically pray for the younger grandkids who witnessed him getting sick as well as my aunt that lives far away. this has been extremely difficult for her. thank you so much
much love,
ariana (:

Friday, June 24, 2011

not ready

not ready to finish my college app. not ready to change my blog layout and pics. not ready to leave high school ministry. not ready for summer to end. not ready for tomorrow to come. not ready for school shopping.
because when all of this happens it will only acknowledge the fact that this chapter has already been finished.
it will remind me that there is no turning back. this is my life now.
so i am not ready.