Ayana u gotta catch that football lik a baby- nubbs. But iv nvr had a baby thrown at me.....? Ayana.

SEE! Told u all i just ate dinner! WOHOOOO

Omg smell this rose!- selena. EW it smells like PIZZA!-nikki. Man i miss my cast and its been 15 min! Ima cry now

For 18 hours, over the course of the next three days......... I WILL BE LIVING AT THE THEATRE

Oh dearrrrr

The boys stopped by to say Hi after I got off work last night. And this is what happened. We had made paper towel bandannas with the kids at work and when they got there they were so jealous I had to make them one. BUT Nathan terada decided to be him and made a scarf sooooooo I didn't allow him in the pic.....what a good friend I am right??? Haha anyways I just want to say that Josh looks like a sushi cook and Evan looks like a ninja gone native (that was Nathans take on me and Audrey ;). Okay I am done!!! =D thanks for stopping by guys :)

2 more days

We are two days away from opening night and I am freaking out. I am constantly nervous :). We are being blessed with a visit from an x theatre arts student =D coughEMILYcough. Last time she showed up, we all screamed like crazy ;). Yea so I have my costume.....always a good thing..... Okay sorry for the rambles but I am seriously freaking out....so many people from church are coming and I am thoroughly nervous. *Barfs* sorry but I am nervous. Okay I am going to calm down and stop typing before I lose all my friends due to my insaneness.
Goodbyeeeeee Wish Me Luck???
Love Ayana <3

Ephesians 1:4

"Even before he made the world, God loved us and chose us in Christ to be holy and without fault in his eyes. "
Ephesians 1:4

When you realize....

When you realize that Gods ways our not ours and that we must trust him well it's a beautiful experience. I'm about to open up about something that up until now was not something I talked about. First, I would like to point out a few situations that made me realize this about God over the weekend.
Okay so my brother Josh was speaking at this big christian conference this weekend and had some concerns. I prayed and prayed for him and we went over some stuff and for his privacy I won't go into detail. But it was just intense to see the power of prayer and how like God worked through that conference and even before it for me to realize we have to trust in him.

Second, today Pastor Jon's cousin was in a serious accident and was sent straight to intensive care. Jerrick got the call in the middle of service and got up and told Jon. Jon shut his Bible quickly and ran out of church. Jerrick than informed us what was happening and we all stopped to pray. We prayed for Robbie's life as he was fighting for it in a hospital bed. Once again it was amazing to see the power of prayer. Than another thing I picked up from the craziness of the mess was that we had to trust God throughout the day as we wanted him to live. The last thing I got and probably most interesting was that our plans are not Gods (we saw that when ours were quickly shaken). We had planned to have church in the park tonight and Jon was gonna teach....That obviously didn't happen.....God always wants to teach us something

Lastly, yesterday was the year anniversary of my cousins death. Last year he committed suicide and me being so young didn't know how to deal with it. So I simply did what was normal......I never dealt with it. But things changed this year as I recalled the horrific memories from his funereal. I had people praying for me and I thought I was gonna freak yesterday. But after much prayer and perseverance on my parts as well as my friends prayers I had a GREAT day. God is good.....wow.....once again the power of prayer.....

OMG! Turkish delight is yummay! I feel lik edmund now. Ya I just made a narnia reference. No really it was good!

Im at target and theres a chick hula hooping in the middle of an aisle! WOW REALLY??

String cheese makes me happy! Now i just need some vitamin water!

Bet just asked me if the lunch I served her was double carbs! WOW! Shes only seven! Geeeeze!!

A Year Ago....

~In Loving Memory Of Anthony Acosta~

8/7/84-5/23/08

I Love you cuz <3>

This will be a hard day, please pray for me.

Thanks, Love Ayana <3

San Fran Video.....FINALLY!....I know ;)

Here we go :) cc took a short term mission to San Fransisco and here are the effects. None of us will ever be the same again and we give God the glory for the change that took place in our lives. There were 38 lives that have changed for the rest of time and we will never forget what we found and felt up there was real. Thanks for watching and God Bless.
PS: Make sure and pause my playlist

A week from today when my show closes. My stomach will be rumbly and 4 the first time in a week, i will eat a huge full meal!

Yipeeeee

I just wanted to say I am not doing anything tonight!!! And guess what!?

IT FEELS GOOD!!

I need some alone time right now, things have just been so crazy I have barely slept the past two weeks! The rest of this weekend will be good seeing the crazy week I have ahead of me next week ;).

Love You All

HEHE

The following just took place as my Aunt and I were going through pictures:

Awh I should do my hair like that again, I liked it!-Ayana

Yeah OK you do that ahna-Aunt Lisha

What?? You didn't like the low pigtail things? Look like this *does hair*-Ayana

OH!!!! I thought you meant that baby picture where your mom spiked your hair-Aunt Lisha

WOW! REALLY!!??!!-Ayana

Ahh geeze!

AGHRRR

My Day.....in re-cap.

My legit coffee I needed to stay awake!

I NEEDED FOOD!! Grrrrrrrrrrrrrr

AHHHH! I have never performed in a theatre that big before!!! AHHHH

Ok it's over! I need food now! Anyone wanta buy me a nice huge cheeseburger 4rm in n out? Ya? Ya!! Ok thx!

Headed 2 rehearsals! Can't wait 4 a long day! Omg the audrenaline rush thats gunna come! Yayyy. Love u all <3

Gagh! I couldn't sleep last night! I am so tired. Being nervous has already set in. I have nervousia! Haha i made that up btw!

Just read my church directory like a book! What has the world come 2?

Doing good

Here I am again :0 wondering how I will fight the spiritual battle! Nearly 2 months away from my trip and Satan is already getting in the way. He has placed a fear bigger than one I have ever had in my head to drag me down. Fortunately I have taken note of a very important thing......I have God on my side. Ahem that one has got to burn Satan..... ;). Anyways, I have found a comfort bigger than that fear ;) in my Jesus. I let go and he took control. What an amazing life lesson I am already learning. Satan had taken control of my thought life and made me fear! Than God took over and brought me peace, comfort, and control. Man being a christian is such a beautiful life to lead. Just thought I'd share, in hopes that it encourages someone.
Love You All so Dearly
Living in Gods Grace, Ayana <3 :)
PS: Philippians 4:13 and Psalms 29:25 really helped me. And the song "fine" by Jaymes Reunion :)

My list

Here's a small list of things I have decided I will do as soon as I come home from Ireland..........

• Eat In N Out (I don't care how jet lagged I am I WILL DRIVE THERE WHEN I LAND)
• Watch the toilet flush THE RIGHT WAY
• Flat Iron my hair (11 days without it go ayana)
• Drive on the right side of the road
• Eat Mexican food (they don't have that there)

Yes that's it....very small but extremely important!!

Ireland!

Here is the complete information regarding my trip. I understand I have been very vauge on the details but lately I have gotten more and more so I have been able to do this post. On July 29th 2009 26 students and leaders will embark on a mission trip to Ireland. Our purpose is clear: to bring the message of God's saving grace to the kids in Dundalk Ireland. We will be conducting a week long VBS and basketball camp for the kids in Dundalk as well as little service projects here and there. God has led me to take a leadership role and teach at the VBS (yea I chose VBS over basketball camp =p). I am very excited and also a little nervous about this trip. As we get closer (only around 2 months away) we have already started the process. Between fundraisers, meetings, and small group preparation we have our work cut out for us :). This is the point in the preparation when I ask for your prayer!! Below I have listed my prayer request along with my prayer card picture :). I would like to close by thanking you all for your support as I break out of my normal Mexico routine and take the gospel to a place full of complete darkness. I ask that you please partner with us by keeping us in prayer. If you wish to partner with us financially, please contact me and I will explain the process.

Thank you all and God Bless

Love Ayana xoxoxo

Prayer Card info:

We ask that you pray for the Irish, that their hearts will become receptive and accepting of the gospel. We also ask that you pray for our team as we prepare for the trip in the months to come. We also ask that you pray for unity within our team as we strive to do God’s will in Ireland. I personally ask for prayer regarding my health before and during the trip. I also ask that you pray for the spiritual battle I will encounter in the coming months. I also ask that you pray for the financial state of the trip for the entire team. Lastly, I ask that you pray that God will direct my every step regarding this trip and that God will strengthen me to do his will. That I will walk without fear and have faith just the size of a mustardseed.

Oh I can't eat anymore buffalo jerky! Now I need my magic pj's! PS: this post was just 4 Josh T!

When life gets weird and hard. Why do we react the way we do?

Congrats!!

Congrats Jesse! She did it! She made it through the hard, gruesome, painful, and difficult process of cancer. I have no idea how she stayed so strong other than by God's grace. I LOVE YOU GIRL!!!!

Today was our third Ireland meeting. I feel like I got a lot out as far as my concerns for the trip that was good. April explained a lot that kinda smoothed out my fears but I am not gunna lie this is still scary.........faith that's what is getting me the most. Having the faith for every aspect of this is so so hard. I know I can do it though, I think...... I am assuming some of the faith needs to start within myself. I suppose at times I don't always believe I am strong enough to get through this stuff. I need to stop talking....

Love you all <3

Okay I just want 2 state that 28 1st and 2nd graders can really kill u! God grant me the strength!

This isn't real!!

A few things but the main reason for my post is because when I came home last night from my retreat I got this super cool package in the mail. It was sent through FedEx and it was small and had my full name on the shipping label. My dad handed me the package and as I opened it there was a beautiful, crisp, blue PASSPORT! I let a squeal as I stared at it in disbelief!! I suppose it just made everything seem more real as far as my trip to Ireland goes!!! PS: I look way older in my picture ;) ohhhhh the power of Costco camera's.

Another thing is today is a special day as our sweet friend Donna celebrates 7 months of a beautiful life in heaven. Where does time go? It seems it was just yesterday she took her last breath on this earth and her first in heaven :).

Today is Jesse's last full day at the hospital :). Tomorrow she receives one more shot of chemo and than (drum roll please?) she gets to go home.....FOR GOOD! What a huge day for her. It has been a long seven months for the Catron family and I am beyond thankful to have been a small part of that journey. My thoughts and prayers turn to Jesse's life after this mess and I hope that you would join me in prayer of this loving family. God has a huge plan for her life and I know he knows what he is doing (what a beautiful promise).

To close I would like to turn my writing back over to the subject of Ireland! As reality has started to set in I am totally scared. There's no two ways around it. I thought it was just a little bit but as reality sets in I have realized it is true that I am way beyond scared. The longest I have spent away from home has been 4 days and never this far. So yea I am kinda freaking out. I am trying not too but this is reality and I am trying to face that too. Ahhhhhh, life is crazy sometimes ;).

Well thank you all so much for your prayers and support for me. As a missionary I covet your prayers and support. They mean the world to me!!! May God bless you as you seek him.
In His Grace,
Ayana :) <3

Note 2 self..... Learn the "KIDS" reprise, you'r production is in 2 weeks! Oyyy vayyy

Almost there

I haven't really sat down and wrote an actual post in awhile....sorry but the one's from my phone are gunna be what you get until things slow down. Been super busy with rehearsals and more rehearsals and did I say rehearsals? Ha ha, but not seriously that is like my life right now :(. I know it's all gonna be over soon and I am going to get a nice 3 month break but until than.... Anyways, I am really excited about Bye Bye Birdie. My grandparents are coming down for it (the first play they have seen of mine since 5th grade). It's getting kinda nerve recking right now though. It's two weeks from today and I am freaking out!!! Where did this year go?????? Everything has just flown by and now I am preparing for final productions, graduations, finals, and end of the year projects. I am exhausted to say the least....where is that thing called alone time? I enjoyed a lot of that last week and I got to stop life and just slow down but now I am heading into full swing of end of the school year craziness. :) it's exciting but kinda weird. I look back at my life this time last year and I am astonished at the change. I have gained so many friends, wisdom, and strength since than. I have learned to have fun too ;). I don't really know where I am heading with this I guess I just wanted to just say life is crazy good right now (but I am super busy). It feels good to just write this all out!!
Much Love
Miss Marcella :)

Best friend went 2 vegas 4 the weekend......miss you already dear. Blah what a horrifyingly long trip!

Loving my friday. Lunch with Steph (my youth leader). Than birthday party and girls mini retreat 2nite! Yayyy

So I finally had my sugar rush. Unfortunetly it happened in the bathroom at church! I am full of epicness my friends! I love you all.......... Peace out!

"Just like a boyfriend in high school you don't need a facebook"- Taylor Shales

Everytime i chew 2day u can hear my jaw crack! Agghh why can't doctors figure out what's wrong with me? PLEASE GOD!

Rehersals suck! I just wanted 2 state the obvious! Someone come rescue me from this? ;-)

I just ate 4 0Z of red vines! Hello sugar rush!

Philippians 3:8

"For his sake I have discarded everything else, counting it all as garbage, so that I could gain Christ." How encouraging, Paul let go of everything he had to gain Christ. I suppose that is going to have to be my mission today :).
God Bless
Love You All <3

Here i am 17 days away 4rm another performance. I promise time flies! I am not fully prepared & 2 say the least I am kinda freakn out........ GRRRRRR

The Sand :)

LOOK AT THAT SAND! Hahaha that day was amazing and kicked off some great memories before San Fran. Look at her face.....I seriously love her :) <3

Josh M and me being friends is like mixing peas and mac and cheese! Hahahaha

At zitos 4 lunch with the richardsons. Susan just sat on her salad 2 fit it in the box. Shes so shankerpottamus! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA I LOVE THEM

"This is lovely because......*looks at me* WHAT?"-My mom. "Haha u just referred 2 ur drink as lovely"-Me

Jesus is the most beautiful thing I have ever seen! How do people live without him? I don't get it!!

Fall Back

here's the lyrics to the christian song on my playlist. I just wanted everyone to know and understand that it a very great christian song we play at my church. I personally think that he's bold for making the music he does.
http://jesusfreakhideout.com/lyrics/new/track.asp?track_id=11308
God Bless
Love Ayana <3

Haha its 11am and lele is a tad tired. *starts singing camp rock*-lele. quickly changes subject! "OH!! DADDY VITAMINS!"-lele. Man she is so cute! Peace <3 <3

What are you living for?

Recently, a few things lead me to ask what was I really living for. Was it acting? Mission trips? Swimming? Good Grades? My Friends? My Family? Material Things? I had to realize that in a matter of seconds that could all be taken away from me. Than I had to decide if I was gonna keep living for that stuff or live 100 percent for Jesus. Of course, I was already living for Jesus, but perhaps just not being fully committed (oh! what a hard life lesson). But I chose to live it out 24/7 100 percent. Even if that meant having to ask God for forgiveness and direction every once in awhile. Even if my focused strayed for a little bit, I know God is gonna bring it back. Anyways, I was just listening to Faust, Midas, and Myself by Switchfoot. And the following line from the song hit home: "A heart that's made of gold can't really beat at all". It makes you wonder what your living for!! Hmmmmmm so insightful!!!!! Kinda something to ponder!!

Why is ur hair always in my moulth?- Lacee Bradys take on my hair ;)

ahhhhhhh!!!!

im getting my yearbook today.......only time will tell if i absolutely hate my picture!!!! I really don't think I want to see it geeze. Well I am in a hurry and kinda boring so let these few pictures be you entertainment for now. Not that I'm ever you entertainment for the day....but hey!

Love Ayana

I really don't know what either of these are of =p!!

Sarah's Law

So yesterday was the first time I had really researched Sarah's law. After doing a little research on it for a school project yesterday my heart was completely broken. Could we as a nation seriously be doing this to our teenage girls? We hide their abortions for WHAT!? So that they can be broken, hurt, and completely changed!!! Isn't this murder!? I'm sorry but I don't think I can handle that. It doesn't make sense and that is why I support Sarah's law. I know I have absolutely no say so for various reasons but I support the governments law.

Almost Wednesday

Yes it is almost Wednesday and I can't wait!! Wednesday is when my week really starts. Like I love Sundays, but Mondays and Tuesdays pretty much blow. Anyways, for an update I don't have much but ya. I guess just like thanks to everyone who supported us through the pancake breakfast. It really blessed our team so I pray that God will continue to bless you all too.

Love You All <3

Wow. Im so bored. Im at the market with my mom and Aaron R. Soooooo bored!!

San Fran Pics

Uhhhmmmm I think thats Josh T playing the Devil

Audrey, Rowry, Sarah, and Steen :)

Audrey, Me, and Zacheus

Tay, Me, and Christian.......we are weird.

Me and David I think I like this one better

Driving home with two amazing people

Me and David A. Okay so Steen totally posed us that way........weirdo

Me and Cigar Boy....... ;)

Me and Evan being crazy. Hahaha isn't that what friends are for?

Me and Sarah

Blue steele, Tay and I had a complete photo shoot

Eating dinner with Tay

Me and Princess

Me and Bridgette :)

Hahahaha me and Christian

At fishermans warf :) nice to see the water ;)

Almost there

Stop at Starbucks at 6 am

Ayana: How did we miss labor day?
Jen: What, we did??!?!
Ayana: Wait, it has a letter M next to it.=
Jen: Great, we missed labor day in Malaysia
Ayana: HAHA it is in september

wow we're odd

LOL

I think I spent to much time with my Ireland team today......wait that is scary ;) jk jk I love them. Anyways, we got our awesome prayer cards today or well some of us did ;). By the way mine went very very fast. And so yea I took Zach's (picture above) and taped it to my shirt. Man I must be a good friend ;). His reaction was classic:

Ayana: Hey Cigar boy whatchya up 2?

Cigar Boy: OMG! WHAT IS THAT

Ayana: Your prayer card?

Cigar Boy: =O

Ayana: *laughs hysterically*

Cigar Boy: OHHHHH THAT IS SO LEGIT

Hahahaha good times I love those people.

I just saw this 4rm the san fran info: all plans subject 2 change upon the leading of Gods Holy Spirit. Haha isnt that the truth, God changd r course fo sho

Btw ya all, I made it thrue the entire month of april without burning myself. *breaks her record* -sent 4rm my phone-

11:00 am, Saturday morning on a drive.
The song shackles by Mary Mary comes on and in the quiet of my heart and the car a single thought crosses my mind. The thought that up until now I have pushed away by bringing up something else trying to forget the vivid images and sounds that come to mind. But for some odd reason for the first time since everything I let my mind wonder today. As it did the most incredible memories came back. First her smile and than her hair when it had just started growing back. The times we would get so excited when an inch of hair would grow because it showed signs of a healed body. The way she would say Ayana and the distinct way she led CM worship. Her hugs, her smile, her laugh, and her voice. The memories that I had pushed away for so long in fear of being completely hurt, had flooded my mind within a matter of a few seconds. Everything else around me seemed to drown out. I could no longer hear the song on the radio or recognize where I was. The only thing clear was the memories of Donna and the sound of her voice. And the best part was that for the first time since she passed every single memory made me smile and made heaven seem closer.

me and Zach leading worship at a bonfire. man Jesus just loves me, he has so blessed me with amazing friends

crazy week

and this is what happends...

Epic Conversations from the week!

Jenna: Maybe he got hotter over the years.

Ayana: But he's in a cult now.

Jenna: So? Cult guys can be hot.

Ayana:..............

Ayana: Rachel Ray is annoying.

Jenna: Yeah. She's always coming up with stupid phrases like....FABOOSH.

Ayana: *spits water*

Jenna: Maybe I made that one up.

Ayana: TRY MY MEXICAN WAFER JUNK

everyone on the face of the Earth: Gross