some stuff...

Since coming home from camp I have felt closer to God then I have in awhile. After returning from a missions trip and dealing with re-entry, a little relaxing time with God was just what I needed. I am going through a lot right now, like I mean a lot!!! I am choosing to be silent about most of this as only my best friend and boyfriend know. They are simply trials but the beauty of life is that those trials are here for a reason. It's hard and yea I'll be honest, it stinks. Normally I would choose to come here and vomit up all that is happening in my life, however I feel God saying this time to be silent. This is hard for me because normally I am a very talkative person. Through this I have felt pretty distant from all of my friends and usually that would be super hard for me. But recently God's presence in my life has been so overpowering that I don't feel alone at all. If all of this brings me to the point where I fully trust God, where that wall that I have built higher and higher for so long comes down. Bring it! I already feel 10 times closer to God and although this hurts and it's no fun, it's to bring a better ending. God has me in the palm of his hands! I am truly blessed

MORE!

These are the pics that show the fun and entertaining side of missions work (:

our jon picture =p

she'ss driving and we are just enjoying each other

gabbs found a mirror?

so close it's scary ;)

Dea took this of me, I told her it was kinda weird... (:

Not trying to overload you...

But who doesn't love a load of pics?

the beautiful ocean behind us (:

Tyler, Brodie, and Evan attempting to take down their tent

Brenna, Zip Tie, and me at the beach!!!

Typical Justin Hong

My youth pastors adorable son. I love him!

Talia's flat tire... :(

Dani, Jenni, Cady, and My tent

Hanging at the beach

Not sure what's going down?

Sweet Friends: Siaira and Sean

Girl Day

We had a girl day with some close friends before Ireland and here are the pics :)

We're beautiful we know!! ;) ;)

g-free heart shaped brownies?

rat tails and best friends!! what could be better???

Acknowledging dani's obsession and me wanting to barf

HSM pose in Vons in our pajama's.....come on!!!!

It's the last night of summer and tomorrow it's senior year. Where did time go?? AHHH. Anyways camp was really good and I got really close to Jesus. He gave me peace and guidance with a lot of my struggles. But it's still not totally easy. I still get down at times and have to work through those feelings. Anyhow just wanted to update.

Love Ariana

Hello SB

(This picture has NOTHING to do with this post but it's cute right??)

Hi There :)

This week I am headed out to go camping with my youth group and I am stoked.! The reason I decided to go kinda ties in with the whole reason I am writing this post. Up until July 19th, I had my whole year planned out. I had a show, planning for my sisters leave and then finishing up 11th grade. After that I had to start planning for Ireland. That took 4 months and I was totally consumed with serving God. Then I went! I landed in Ireland and from that moment until the moment I landed back here I was totally consumed with serving. It was the greatest feeling and God did so much in my life. He broke me and re shaped me, it is amazing to think back upon that. But now I have a different emotion running through me and well it isn't the easiest to cope with. Some of you know about re entry and the end of a missions trip. To put it plainly it isn't fun...at all!! Totally worth it but no fun. But this time the re entry was different. I can't get the kids off my mind. I saw so much more heartbreak this year and my heart became even more attached. I couldn't hold back and so yes my heart literally broke when I left. I saw the kids in Gods eyes and his heart for them. I saw a small part of the vision for Ireland fulfilled. But God showed me something on this trip. Something that while I had been praying for an answer I hadn't necessarily been searching for it in Ireland. The answer to this question made my departure that much harder. See I had been literally seeking the Lord on where he wanted me to be a missionary too. I already determined that was my life calling but where had remained unanswered. To be honest part of me didn't want to know, as I was scared to where he would lead. However, my fears were calmed and a peace about the future was present for the past 5 months. God showed me that Ireland was my calling, so to leave was totally hard!! I wish I could say that I don't wake up with a longing for Ireland or even go to bed with it. But that isn't true. The hardest part is it feels as if this longing is here to stay. It hasn't gotten easier in the past three weeks and in some ways it's only got harder. I am grateful for it but it's hard. The first two weeks home was mostly trying to seriously recover. To get laundry done, unpack and try and rest. I was so stinking tired the first week and sick the second week. Then the third week I tried to get back on my feet but I got sick again on Monday. Then I was okay Tuesday and went to an amusement park. While I was there I got hurt on a ride and got a concussion. So that week was shot as all I did was lay in bed with an ice pack. Starting this week off was hard as I was even more confused about my emotions. I felt complacent and bored. I have nothing to do!! So I decided I had nothing to loose and that I'm going to camp with my youth group. I gave myself so much time to plan it out :). Haha nah I totally didn't. Anyways that's what's up right now. I am totally excited to just spent time with friends and Jesus. To relax! Thanks for listening!!

Love Always

Ariana <3

Ireland Pics #5

Just a few cute one's

Evan and I in the pouring rain with our coffee :)

Fiachra and Eabha

Performing Ragman

Gotta love everything skit

LOVE THIS FAMILY!!!!!!!!!!