Picture of the Day

That was a spectacular weekend :). We had a girls weekend and we were in our hotel. We decieded to make iced coffee and gave eachother make overs. Lovely right?

Confession 2

I have a bad obsession with buying hoodies. It has cost me a lot of money and is not healthy. I must say that they make me feel beautiful. That is where i fall short :(

(Confession Project)

This is linked to Morgs blog :) if you really want to understand us :). I just follow everything she does and life is pretty slick. Morgan is a smart lady and a yea. Either this is really gonna stink for us or it will really work out.... one of the two. Okay here I go.....
(Confession #1)
I have had super weird dreams since I was like 5 and I haven't slept well since then :(

How I'm Doing

People have been asking a lot about how I am handling the current state of my life. I guess it's so-so. I have good days and bad days. I have moments where I remember something sweet about them and I cry. It makes me miss them more. I have some nights that are sleepless and others where I sleep like a baby. I miss my Sister and Bro in law. I miss them a lot, however I have to joy and peace of the Lord. While I do have moments of weakness and moments where I want to scream, I know and I am holding onto one truth that God is still on his throne. I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that God has taken them to Australia for a reason. My fears are minimal and I am thankful for that. I am thankful that the Lord is the source of my strength and that he is keeping my eyes fixed on him. It is only by the Lords guidance that I keep my eyes fixed on the beautiful attributes of my Jesus. Just about a year ago Jesus restored my relationship with Denielle and now this move is difficult on me. I am sorry many of you don't understand how this affects me and you wouldn't unless it happened to you. So in all truth it is hard and I am sad but Jesus is bringing me through it and I love the fact that he is right here beside me.

trying

I've been trying really hard to write more but that has been a bit of a trial :). I have just been super busy.... again. Shocking I know!! Denielle and Paul are here right now, this is their second day here and they leave Sunday. They are not returning to AZ but permanently moving to Australia. Kinda insane when you think about it. They were offered some great ministries opportunities there and we are very excited to see what God does. Did I mention Ireland is coming up soon? It is exactly four months away!!! My application and first payment is due this Sunday. I am totally living in Faith regarding the funds. I think the whole team is, it is really cool to watch the Lord work through that even now. I know four months may sound far off but in all reality it will go by super fast and will come out of nowhere. I am super stoked about returning. I feel the Lord leading there and it seems pretty strong. Every time I pray for my return, my heart burns for those kids. I long to hold them in my arms again and comfort them. To guide them in the way of the Lord. To laugh and play games with them. And ultimately to be a big and loving sister to them. I just can't wait to go back, I would go now if I could. Anyways that's where I am... :)

How hilarious....

Just some more epic moments from camp..... tay's gonna kill me when she sees the pic!!!

Yummy G-Free

These are the most yummy G-Free pancakes, I highly suggest them!!

They aren't too expensive either and only take a few minutes to heat up in the toaster.

I Wonder...

I wonder if she ever knew she was truly my hero
If she ever understood the extent of how much I loved her
Of how much of a treasure she was
How beautiful her life was
How much it reflected Jesus
Did she ever know the gallons of tears I cried for her
The sleepless nights when all I could think of was her face
The times I felt completely alone
That alone feeling was a direct result of the lack of her presence
Did she know she left a mark on this world
Does she know how much we miss her
Could she see the look on my face when I read the horrifying text
Did she whisper a prayer on our behalf in her final moments
Was it painful as she took her last breath
Does she know I love her more today then ever before???