"life isn't tied up with a bow, but it's still gift"

Little Miss

So Little Miss as Susan likes to call her AKA Lele had a very cute moment the other day. One of our vbs songs "Counting on God" says "Joy unspeakable, that won't go away". She was singing it and I thought I heard something different and so I asked her to repeat slowly what she was saying and she was like "Joy on speakerphone" AHAHAHAHA! Something about this doesn't seem right............

Friday's Daily Verse

"..don't be suprised at the fiery trials you are going through......Instead, be very glad-for these trials make you partners with Christ and his suffering, so that you will have the wonderful joy of seeing his glory when it is revealed to all the world."
1 Peter 4:12-13
how stinkin encouraging =D

Painful yet important lessons

A few of those have come my way a few times these past few weeks ;). It's been difficult. many times have I found myself crying out to God asking him to be near. And many times the enemy has tried to deceive me. Wednesday night, Tony taught an on-fire sermon. Weirdest part was that there was no sermon. We had a night of worship and saying goodbye to Steph (more info in a later post ;). But Tony spoke a small word and well God used that powerfully. Anyways, he was talking about hardships and how when God calls us to them we must be obedient. He encouraged us to pray with him and promise the Lord and explain that we would willingly go through the trials. No matter what this means we need to stop fighting, know God's strength, and just go through it faithfully. Well I promised God that I would do that. It wasn't easy, but I was tired of fighting and was ready for God to take control. (I don't write any of this for self glory I am going somewhere). Well as to be expected with that prayer I was instantaneously thrown into a fight, a spiritual fight. These past two nights have been really difficult, Satan was really trying to drag me down. I held unto Jesus. Than literally in my misery and pain (it was a physical attack this morning) I realized a huge huge truth and beauty of this all. I would rather go through trials, pain, and misery if that is how God is going to show me that he is at work. It is all worth it, if it means God is working out his master plan.
Just thought I'd share.
Love Ayana

God has said I must go through this, so I'm going 2 be obedient. Heeeereeee we go!

jr high

The first set are from 7th grade and the second from 8th WOOOWWW

Halloween (yea I was tink)

Me and Dark Vader :)

Car Wash (for yearbook)

Hollywood Party

8th Grade :)

Me and Zach Finn :)

Cheer Captain Days (not toooo proud of those ;)

Student Council (I was secretary)

When I was a girl scout ;)

Say no to drugs week

Matthew 25:23

"The master said, Well done, my good and faithful servant. You have been faithful in handling this small amount, so now I will give you many more responsibilities. Let's celebrate together!!"

What a scary yet beautiful promise!!!

Happy Birthday Daddddyyyy

Today my dad celebrates his well he celebrates a birthday!!! I just want to say happy birthday daddy and thank you for everything. Our family has seen a lot and has seen some better days, but you are always there. Today I rejoice for the Christian Father and mentor you have become. I am thankful that you take the time out of your busy day to pray for all of us. I thank you that you take us to church countless times every week.. And I thank you that even though raising me can be a struggle that you never gave up on that either. You have sought the Lord out on every deciesion you have chosen for this family. And even though at times I disagreed you still kept going strong. I love you with all my heart and can not put into words my gratitude!!! God bless you today and always.

Love Ayana <3

(Walking his oldest daughter down the aisle)

(My Daddy and I on our way to a broadway show in NY)

(Me and Daddy at the Statue of Liberty)

(Uhmmmm somewhere in Virgina??)

(At My Graduation)

(Our Road Trip to New Mexico)

Ireland Update 1

Heyyy All,
Thank you all for your sweet prayers and support. It has been a beautiful experience to let go, sit back, and watch God do his work! Gosh it's hard cause sometimes, we forget how beautiful this can be and try to take control all by our self. We are so weak and helpless though that we end up in a big mess that we ourselves created. Makes sense right!? Well no not really, but that's ok because God ALWAYS uses it to bring Glory to him. Moving on to where our team is at the moment. This past weekend was huge!! We had a great concert friday night and God really blessed that as far as fundraising. Once again where God was working the enemy was attempting to attack. Some stuff happend to a team members family, however he made it out with strength. God is good. Saturday morning we met at the park for our team meeting and learned a lot of the skits. I think we worked all the way through ragman! SO POWERFUL. We hung out with each other and had fun, it was awesome. We are preparing like crazy now. I guess we get to the part where we work out the logistics and our hearts mindsets (did that make sense?). We figured out the all the crafts for vbs (yes I am one of three in charge of that). And now I prepare my teaching for vbs. I am so blessed to be able to teach those beautiful children. I guess that's all for now..... I will keep you all updated.

Lastly before I end this, it would only be right that I asked for prayer upon my amazing family. As many of you my Aunt has been a slow fade for a little while now. Unfortunately (for us not her ;) we were told that her time is near.My grandpa is headed to the hospital today to say goodbye. Please pray for peace, strength, and the Lords love for my grandpa. Please also pray for myself that I can deal with this properly. I am unsure really of how to show any emotion at the moment. Thanks!!!
Love Ayana
"To God Be The Glory"

Overwhelmed!

I am overwhelmed right now! Words could not describe how I feel, I just can't put it into words. I let go of my troubles and God provides. Even the little things I was worried about, I was offered a sweet deal today!! God loves me too much. Even when I fail and that my friends is the complete truth. I am a failure and don't deserve this trip but he has reached down his hand to put me there. I am honored to be a chosen vessel of my Lord and Saviour. This all just causes me to want to do the Lord's will, to bless him back because of the huge blessing he has poured upon me. We are six weeks away from our trip...... Hello bumpy ride!! I can't wait!!!!!!!!!

To: Morgs and Mere

"He gives power to the weak and strength to the powerless"
Isaiah 40:29
I love you both!! Jesus gave that to me for you two

A peace

Hey All,
As many of you know the past few days have been rough as I have struggled to make ends meet as the cut off date for Ireland is only 3 days away. While this is a somewhat scary statement it is also the truth. And with it being the truth it is also a beautiful thing. Just around a week ago I got sick with something in my neck. We had no idea what it was and still don't. I was put on antibiotics and they had an awful effect on me Sunday and Monday. So to say the least I was a little hopeless Monday when I posted that. I thank you all for your kind comments they have meant the world. It reminded me of Gods plan and kept me focused. These next few days will be difficult as strive to continue to be focused. God has shown me some beautiful things through this and I am clinging to the promise that he has a great plan with or without Ireland. So I still ask for your prayers and encouragement. The enemy is on the prowl and I am well aware that he is using finances to draw me away. But God has used all of you to humble and draw me back to the foot of the cross, where I will continue to worship and bless my God no matter what.
Thank You All
and To God Be The Glory
Love Ayana <3

AHHH!!!!

i need 722$ by sunday. someone better pray because I need to go to ireland!
love u all

LOL!

~The following happened earlier when I went to go get my medication at Costco~
Do you take any vitamins or stomach meds?-The pharmacy lady
Just vitamins :)- Me
=O- My Mom
Ok, I am gonna have you hold off on those until you have finished the medication- The pharmacy lady
~20 min later~
Ahem, so I don't really take vitamins everyday.............I just wanted to sound good- Me
THAT'S WHAT I WAS THINKING- My Mom
AHAAHAHAHAH WE ARE HILARIOUS!!

2 look @ their faces hurts 2 much. B/c it only makes reality more real. And atm reality is sad.

Highlights

Here are the highlight pictures from my sophomore year of h.s. I left a few out that are on my sidebar :)

The Difference

I found these three photos from drama class. The first is from my first semester of theatre, the second is from my second semester, and the third is from the third semester of theatre. It amazed me how much change could take place.

These pictures than made me think of the different types of growth I have had since I started this class. The confidence I gained, the friends I gained, the person I became, the hard stuff I went through, the small but some growth i had, and mainly the freedom I was given through theatre. Today I am thankful and today I thank not only God but those amazing friends who were there.

Happy Birthday Aunty Susan

Today my aunt celebrates her 23rd birthday ;) wait I meant 43rd (but hey she posted that info on her blog). Anyways, to try and start somewhere would make my life COMPLICATED. She's been with me through a lot and we have seen both those ugly and beautiful days. I think that's part of a true friendship. Let's face it God really used her to relay that message to us to call the fire department. We really had no plans of that seeing we totally laughed at her. Hah our God has a sense of humor......but need I go into that now? She has always been there to support, encourage, and those few times reprove me and it was all in love. I thank God every day for who she is and the person she is helping me become. I see God's grace, comfort, love and provision through her everyday. So today let me say Happy Birthday and may the Lord bless you tremendously as you continue in his business. Have a fantastic day

I love you <3>

PS: for our sake I totally did not bring up ANY memories ;)

WAIT!!! why are all my pictures of Susan her in a worship shirt!???? ;)

I have now been called a reggae singer and octopus. I didn't know a hat could do that *sigh*

Ayyyyeee

It's been a crazy weekend! I have been at church all weekend =O for the Narnia play. I am kinda exhausted. On a much brighter note it rained today and than got sunny than rained than felt like we were in the tropics. Totally weird!! I twittered that it meant God was coming back ;). BTW follow me on there at http://twitter.com/brokeninlove. That's about all right now, i will blog more regarding Narnia and my life after tomorrow. Yayyy ;). Okay love u all <3

Class Of 2009

Today was my schools graduation..... *sigh*. It was a hard day, saying goodbye to everybody. But I promised Josh and Morgs we would take a family picture ;). Here it is enjoy my familyness :).

Awww my sis and bro. Someone explain how we got a blondee??? :) Love both of u like nuts <3

I get this insane rush when I am worshiping God. Is that not normal?

From the same mouth come both blessings & cursing. My brethren, these things ought not to be this way!- James 3:10

Be still and know that I am God!- Psalm 46:10

Would it be ironic to say I wish I could go back and re-live this semester? Being away from my cast has been too much too handle!!

Favorite comercial right now is the verizon/ice cream/sprinkle one. So sorry if you havent seen it.........

We'v Reached The END!!

I just finished school today and I can't believe it...I am speechless. Just 9 months ago I started a journey that to be honest, I never thought I would finish. To sit here and tell you my story would be well ridiculous. Because the truth is most of you walked the similar journey. Whether you were connected because of the mutual friendship or because you guys are all just great friends, you were all there. I started the school year off well aware that a dear friend would be going home soon. Unfortunately, this happened sooner than most of us expected and it was difficult. There would be days, when I just didn't think I could do it anymore. Getting out of bed every morning, staying in school, and keeping up on my social life all seemed to not really look attractive anymore. But seriously I could sit here and go on and on all day about the how amazing (both good and bad) that this school year was. So I won't ;) but I just wanted to say thanks!! First to Jesus for pulling me through something that was ever so hard (even if he did have to carry me a few times). Also to all of my friends and family who were there when it mattered the most. Words could never express my gratitude......To God Be The Glory!!!

This all leads me to the final production of Bye Bye Birdie..... IT WAS AWESOME!! We had so much fun backstage, those people are seriously my family. They mean the world!!!! to me and I couldn't put into words how much I love them. I decided to add a few pics.... :) hahaha don't laugh to hard we were all EXTREMELY tired. Thank you all so much for your love and support, I seriously felt like a celebrity ;).

Love Ayana

Performing!!! =D

Me and Luc

Me and my stage sister

My stage mom

All ready to hit the stage!!!

Me and Em ( the ex TA student who came back)

Ellis, Anahi, and Stephanie (some of my closest cast members)

Way to embarrass slater ;)

Mine and Sarah's awkward Prom pose :)

Me and ems again man were nuts ;)