Thank You Faculty :)

I just wanted to extend my gratitude and appreciation to the faculty of my high school. I have been chosen along with 15 other students (out of the 450 in my school) to attend a student leadership conference! I am so stoked and excited to see how this turns out!! Thanks to the faculty and teachers! I am beyond thankful!
-Addicted To Dr.Pepper!! <3

Can't Peel a Banana

So when I get home from church on Wednesdays, I have to have a snack!! I don't know what it is!!???!! Maybe its because church fills me up so much spiritually, that I loose it physically =p. Sure that probably made no sense, I don't really make sense!! Anyways I went to get a banana and to my surprise.....I CAN'T PEEL IT! So I'm all hey I'll make myself feel better and cut the top off until I realize I still can't get in. I'm like dude Mr. Banana uh I just want to eat you!! Finally I open it and eat it and well it wasn't that great. Now I want another snack but can't decide. I mean I had a hard enough time figuring out the banana ordeal. Yeah most girls sit around figuring out there hair, makeup, and clothes. Not me I freak over which of my billion hoodies to wear and what to eat! Maybe I just outa go to bed before i freak out and hurt myself.....
Good Night Homes
I love you all
-Addicted to Dr. Pepper

My Prayer

Dear Jesus,
This is hard for me, watching my aunt slowly fade and seeing the constant pain she is in! God, I know you have a beautiful plan for her life and I thank you for that peace. I pray that your peace and comfort would come upon her as well as the rest of my family. I pray that this would bring many of our unsaved family to you. I am fully trusting in you at this time and I know that you are way bigger than Sarcoma or any disease! I thank you for your healing power and your love for your children. I know you have the answer and you are aching to set my Aunt free from her pain. I ask that you would keep me strong and force me to look up when things get bad! I love you heavenly father and above all else ask that your will would be done. Nothing more and nothing less. Thank you for never letting go of me, I love you.
In Your Name,
Amen!!

Prayer Requests

1. Jesse, she had a hard night last night. The only good news is her ANC dropped to 0. Please pray for the pain to diminish and comfort. You can read more about it Here .

2. My family. Little details but just for guidance and provision. Also for a safe to trip out to the Zone ;) for Denielle's wedding that will be end of Feb.

3. Continue to lift up the Richard's in your prayer. We are praying for no cancer right now!!

4. For strength on my part during my trials. That I will fall at the feet of Jesus and worship him. For comfort and peace and that everything with my aunt will be an easy transition when it needs to happen...

5. For the HS camp this weekend that God will do great and mighty things. Also for protection on all our cars and to make it home safely.

6. Lastly that beautiful things will come from the Missions Expo we had last weekend!
Thanks prayer warriors I love you!!

Happy Birthday =D

Happy Birthday Bubbles!!
It's hard to believe your 25 already!! Where did time go?? It seems it was just yesterday that we played ball on the front lawn, that we fought over the silliest things, that we would swim together and would help me with my strokes. The time you saved me from drowning when I was little seems as though it was just yesterday and it was forever ago. My first day of school where you proudly walked me to my class with the rest of the fam. The day you graduated high school with that smile because you actually made it ;). When you went off to bible college for months and it felt like break would never come! When you went through your power puff girl stage and collecting the energy drink bottles =p. It all seems like it was just a week ago and it was years ago. Time flies when you have fun and we have done a pretty great job! I hope you have wonderfull day my Handsome Rob and God Bless
Happy Birthday

Your cat just died

I got this as a forward email the other day and had a few questions bout it.
a. who came up with this?
b. what is the point of this?
c. is it really that important to educate ourselves on informing someone of their cat's death?
d. would u really be this blunt about it?

Top 10 Ways To Tell Your Friend His Cat's Dead

1. "I've got good news and bad news. Bad news is, your cat's dead. The good news is that I saved a lot on my car insurance."
2. "Hey, you're out of milk, the chips are stale, your cat's dead, and the light bulb in the bathroom needs to be changed.
3. "(when they walk into the apartment) *sniff* *sniff* "You smell dead cat?
4. "Leave a suicide note next to the cat with a finished bag of catnip mentioning how boring the sitter was.
5. "Are you still interested in those taxidermy classes?
6. "Get rid of the cat, draw a chalk outline, put up police tape all over the place, and act stupid.
7. "Will everyone with a live cat please step forward… Not so fast, buddy.""
8. You have a couple of messages: Your mom called, she wants you to call her back; Your landlord said the rent is late; Your cat said 'Bye'.
9. "(When you pick him up from the airport)sitter: Let's play a game… Dead or Human.owner: Huh? Ok…sitter: You?owner: Humansitter: Me?owner: Humansitter: Your cat?owner: …
10. owner: Thanks for watching the place. Where are my keys?sitter: Oh, I think they're under your dead cat.

Not Property!!

Tony gave an awesome teaching Wednesday nights. He was talking about purity and many different aspects of it. One thing really hit home for me during service. He talked about girls not being a guys property. He explained that we were created for so much more than to be "owned" by a guy. Our bodies were meant to honor God and than for marriage. However in the dating realm if someone doesn't "like" us for more than just physical needs, you need to run!!! I don't know that really just spoke to me. Like our beauty needs to be than outwards appearance. Cause in the end that won't matter and will only hurt our relationships. I just wanted to share that with you people in my blog world. Take that into account as well if your a guy.
God Bless You and I pray you seek him not only in your relationships but every part of your life.
Loveeee Youuuuu

Hehe :)

1/25/09
Ayana: Are we praying before worship??? Are we??? Anyone?????
Ayana: Oh JBear are we praying still??
Jbear: *gets distracted* huh?
Ayana: Is prayer still legit??
JBear: Prayer is so legit that you just can't quit! *poses*
Ayana: So were praying??
Jbear: Yeah It's legit!!!
WOW

Errrr Surveyy Thingy

1. Do you like blue cheese salad dressing? yummy
2. Do you have a hero? Donna and Jesus. Odd as it is Supaman (the fake one) Spiderman (the real one)
3. Do you own a gun? no i dont
4. What's your favorite drink at Starbucks or other specialty Coffee shop? carmel frapp or shaken grean tea
5. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments? no???
6. What do you think of hot dogs? i think of issy and mitch and a bus =p
7. What do you prefer to drink in the morning? iced cold water!!
8. Can you do push ups? a few.....
9. Favorite piece of jewelry? purity ring and guitar pic necklace
10. Favorite hobby? acting
11. Do you have A.D.H.D? ahem!
12. What's one trait that you hate about yourself? im learning to be comfortable with everything and asking God to change my flaws
13. What is your middle name? Marcella
14. Name 3 thoughts right now? why are my sister and bros arguing about weddings, why an I taking this and man im bored
15. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink? water orange juice and coke (yea i DRINK that supaman)
16. The friend you had the longest? Jess
17. Current hate right now? posers
18. Favorite place to be? school with my drama classmates
19. How did you bring in the New Year? hung out with my second family
20. Do you like to travel? id trade it for alot!
21. Name three people who will complete this?idk and idc =p
22. Do you own slippers? tooooo many too count
23. What color shirt are you wearing? i think and black shirt but u cant c it cuz my grey fender hoodie is over it
24. Do you have a crush on someone? maybeeeeee
25. Does someone have a crush on you? maybeeee ;)
26. Favorite color? red and black
27. Would you be a pirate? wow just wow
28. What songs do you sing in the shower? oh goodness "gotta go my own way" cause that was my auddition song loll
29. Favorite girl's name? grace
30. Favorite boy's name? seth
31. What's in your pocket right now? nothing??
32.Best bed sheets as a child? i think my hill duff theme bedroom yeah make fun of me :)
33. Worst injury you've ever had? if u call my throat surgery an injury????
34. Do you love where you live? eh its okay but hey cant complain
35. How many TVs do you have in your house? 2
36. Who is your loudest friend? I got a lot!! britt and I get in trouble alot for that!!
37. How many pets do you have? 1
38. Can you whistle? *runs away*
39. What is your favorite book? bible or guys like girls who...
40. What is your favorite candy? butterfinger, kit kat, GUMMY BEARS!! *winks at Ellis*
41. Favorite Sports Team(s)? cardinals (football) and dodgers
42. What were you doing before starting this survey? nothing i was bored and supaman didnt help :(
43. What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up this morning? its raining again why do I have to get out of bed

Busyy Time :)

I kept sitting down to blog since I hadn't written in awhile but every time I did something came up. This week was pretty laid back for school and church as well. I was a tad consumed by auditions for bye bye birdie. They went really great =D (i think ;). I'm hoping for a bigger role this time but I'm happy with whatever I'm given. So the first day of theatre arts went good. It was definitely different because of the new people! But we can get along *laughs*
Well just wanted to check in ttyl
Love Ayana
Ps I got pink extensions =D

Slowly Fading

As time has moved on, my aunt has gotten way worse. Everyday is a struggle to keep going. About a week ago she shared that her reason for hanging on was because her grand kids aren't saved yet. That tore me apart to think she was waiting to see that. It would seem fitting that at this point I would be a mess, but I am pretty stable. I am so sad to think of it ending this way. I mean she's so young and to lay there in bed dying because of Sarcoma?? It just seems wrong!!! I haven't talked about this with people much because well no one really gets it. No one close to me has dealt with people dying of cancer. Except those who shared in Donna's passing with me. But I can't talk to them about this yet, still to raw. But nobody my age gets exactly what I am dealing with. Truthfully (for those who keep asking) I am mourning Donna's passing because I lost a friend! Donna didn't loose anything and therefore I don't mourn for her. I mourn for those including myself who have to live life without her. The bible says that God will turn our mourning into rejoicing and thankfully I have seen that day! On the other hand I still have my moments. But overall I am a much joyful person knowing shes with my Jesus. All this leads me to say that I am fully prepared for whatever God brings with my Aunt. I am not saying it will be easy and I am not saying I won't mourn. I am simply stating that I know how to handle it this time and I have God on my side! I don't see it as fair game that God would take my Aunt at this time. I also never thought it was fair that he took Donna so early, but God spoke to me through my mourning and showed me the reason why. It wasn't fair that he took her but he had a plan. I guess I write this to say that I am ready for Gods will but at the same time I need your prayers and support at this time. I thank you all for everything you have done and I pray that even though you don't understand my pain that you would simply encourage me right now. I need Gods love through his people at this time.
I Love You All Very Much
Ayana <3

Sunday Wins ;)

This conversation from Sunday has got to be the best yet!!! I'm sure after a few days, something else will top it. But as of now.....

Ayana: Come sit with me
Tay: Okay what should we talk about??
Ayana: Hmmmmm
Tay: Hmmmm
Ayana: DANDELIONS!!!!
Tay: Okay :)
Ayana: uhhhhh *turns to mike* hey mike want to talk about dandelions with us??
Mike: uhh no!!!! I'm going to pass.....sorry......
Ayana: *laughs hysterically* I can't imagine why!!

Classic Convo's With My GF!!!!!

Ayana: omjs i got cream cheese thrown at me at dinner
Jenn: why does that not suprise me at all?
Ayana: bahahahaha THANKS!
Jenn: your welcome

Ayana: The hypothalamus links the nervous system to the endocrine system via the pituitary gland (hypophysis).... faints
Jenn: EWWWIE. i dont understand why anyone would WANT to know what was going on in there.
Ayana: me either!!

Jenn: HOLY CLUMP FREE MASCARA i completed a slice of my pie! is that good?

Ayana: yeah!!

Jenn: oh. yay? the whole pie analogy just aggravates me to no end.

Ayana: omgd i kno its like i dont even like pie anymore

Jenn: MARIE CALENDARS IS DEAD TO ME.

Ayana: totally.

Ayana: btw I don't know if you should change it to Holy free clumpy mascara or holy clumpy free mascara or maybe....

Jenn: OMG did I tell you about the fertilizer guy

Ayana: *silence* let me write that down!!

I <3 U SupaMan!!

Dude your the best!!!! Where would I be without your friendship?? I have gotten mad at you many times but it never lasted more than 5 minutes. 1 because you haven't given me much of a reason. 2 because you never got mad back!! I felt like giving up so many times and you reminded me why I couldn't. You showed me what a true best friend is. You gave me many reasons to laugh. You give some of the best hugs. You have listened to me when I made no sense and tried to help me make sense. You have seen me cry and were still friends =D. You saw me hurting and prayed for me. You make some of the most stellar silly faces that make me laugh intensely. You make me eat and go to sleep when I'd rather not! You have looked out for me and treated me like I'm family ( even thou we all know I am ;). You make awkward moments even more awkward HAH! You are uber sweet to my family even when there not nice to you hehe. You have listened to me scream and laugh about absolutely nothing and still just smiled! You have endured me slapping you to get my anger out and once again just smiled (actually I get that look ;).
Thanks friend your the best Josh aka SupaMan;0)
Love Youuuuuuuu Friend

MSND Moments :)

Okay so we spent three days together in one week and out of that came some "weird" moments!! It was bound to happen, I knew it ;).
Quotes:
"I got my lipstick at Hollister"-Jimmy
"Abraham Lincoln........."- SupaMan. Okay we may never know the ending to that quote cause every time he tried to finish it I would smack him ;O.
Moments of intense laughter:
In the middle of the play Brandon opens the dressing room door, hands me the donkey head, and closes it very fast! I stared at it for a few minutes than asked Emily what to do with it and than started shrieking when it made noise. So I threw it at Stephanie and she started shrieking and than Keenan busted into intense laughter. By the end all of us were laughing trying to figure out why the heck the thing wouldn't shut up. To be honest we still don't know x).
Any moment in the girls dressing room or bathroom. We always had something to laugh about.
Robert and Christians epic performances giving away there "other" side ;).
SupaMan's improv at the end of the fairy song!!
Akward Moments:
Mr Koff and Mrs. Darby's karaoke debut
Ellis and I singing HSM backstage and getting looks
Going back onstage during intermission without my wings or gloves WOOPS!
Ali assuming I was being a bad girl loll
Singing "These boots are made for walking" with the girls :)
It was epic, funny, sad and just fun! The moments made it for sure :)

Performance Was Great!!

Wow what do I say?? I'm so amazed and so blessed right now!! It was fantastic!! I have barely had time to sit down and write this but here I am :) Monday was extensively long, very fun and entertaining though. I slept in pretty late which was nice cause I knew I had a long day ahead of me. I got to the theater around 2 and left around 9:30 (yup long and crazy ;). It was so much fun we hung out, ate lots of junk (aka dinner), and oh yeah performed. It was the most fun I have had on stage in quite awhile. There was a lot of energy and the cast just put there all into it. One of the coolest things was praying before we went on stage. Also the audience =D. It was great having so much family there the first night including the K's . The second night was just as awesome!! We weren't there nearly as long but selling tickets outside of school made up for it. I like to sit here and explain the next part but Josh put it so well here. After that ;) we performed our second and last show *smiles and than it fades*. During intermission on the second night someone came backstage and I heard screams. I turned around and saw my friend Em and of course I started screaming too. ;) Amongst her little surprise visit I got to see Morg's and Kristina!!!!! My bro and his girlfriend Erin also showed up which was a pleasant surprise as well. JBear and Lizzy came to watch too which was way awesome!!! I'm so sad it's over because we had so much fun with each other. I guess one thing I can be thankful for is some rest *laughs* that is until Bye Bye Birdie rehearsal starts ;). Thanks everyone who came and to the cast I LOVE YOU GUYS!!
Love A Tired Fairy ;)

How do we plan??

I'm getting older and lately I have been getting the "what are you doing when you graduate"? question. I really don't mind like talking it out with people but there's one slight problem with it. People don't get that I'm only a sophmore and have a hard time figuring out what classes to take each semester let alone predetermining the rest of my life. What I want to do has changed so much, that I can barely remember my name anymore. I was thinking about my current plan today and I got quite confused. Right now I would love to go to Bible college and get my AA. Than from there get married and do women's or youth ministry at a church. However, a puzzling thought crossed my mind today: what if God has something completely different planned? What if he wants me to hold off on marriage until I'm old or just simply stay single forever?? What if he really is calling me into the air force and how would I do? Am i supposed to go to a regular college and for what? These questions pass my mind constantly and are nerve recking. I just want to do God's will but I realized today no matter how much of a plan I have there's nothing I can do to stop God's plan. So I could sit here and spend valuable time planning something that has a 75% chance of working out or just spend that valuable time in prayer. The way I see it no matter what it will most likely not work out the way I want. So why not take that time to seek God and his will in prayer, instead of worrying about finding a boyfriend are the right job? I'm in God's hands and I don't believe this means I should just be like oh whatever. I just think it means that I should spend that "valuable" time doing VALUABLE things. When life flashes before your eyes you re-think what you spent your valuable time on. It makes more sense to worry about impacting the kingdom than worrying about what college and job I will have 2 1/2 years from now. Please comment guys I want your opinions!!
Love YAH!! <3

Sweet Scarf

So I just go this scarf from Lala for Christmas ;0). It's amazing I am so in love with it. Maybe I should name it....... *Starts rambling off names*Btw- Cheeze Its OWN!

The sense of family and love

Many of you know that most of my life is split between theatre arts and church activities. It goes without saying that the people from both of these places are some of my closest friends. Within my church family it is easier for me to be close with them. It still is hard at first with church people but trusting them comes faster for me than with other people. However, lately I have noticed how close I have gotten with the theatre arts kids :). It has been a wonderful and beautiful experience. At first it was hard for me and I had a slight tendency to not trust those kids. But second semester with them has brought many smiles to my face. I just wanted to take a second to say thanks to them!! They were by my side when Anthony and Donna died and they have never given up on me. They have become like family and I am beyond grateful. I love you all never stop loving me it keeps me going!!

Livivng my life...in a corset???? =p

So today was extensive rehearsal for a mid summers night dream. Yes I'm starring in msnd as a fairy (you know your jealous ;). One of my favorite parts of acting (that i get to do constantly) is wear crazy costumes. This show entailed one of those :). Broadway rocks was just a fun dress and teacher costume. But this show I have to wear a corset!! So it's like extremely uncomfortable and kinda well you know awkward? The best part is I have super conservative teachers so I get to wear a shirt and leggings underneath!! But its awkward!! Did I make my awkward point clear?????? Hahaha ima post pictures later of the costume and you can laugh..............

Stoledddd It From Supa Josh ;)

1) What did you do in 2008 that you'd never done before? Went to camp and got super close with Lala and Jess.
2) Did you keep your New Year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year? Hehe don't remember
3) Did anyone close to you give birth? Yeah Jenni, Mellisa, and Aunt Sarah
4) Did anyone close to you die?Peggy and Donna
5) What countries did you visit? Mexico
6) What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008? Trust and a closer relationship with God.
7) What date(s) from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why? April 25th (prom) and October 16th (donna's victory day)
8) What was your biggest achievement of the year? Giving my testimony at church
9) Did you suffer illness or injury? Hahahahaha and welcome to my life!
10) What was the best thing you bought? My school sweatshirt and my cell
11) Whose behavior merited celebration? Lala and Jess and Jenn
12) Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed? The people who said they would do one thing and did another
13) Where did most of your money go? Places.........
14) What did you get really, really, really excited about? Camp, Broadway Rocks, and summer.
15) What song will always remind you of 2008? "You never let go" and "Friends"
16) Compared to this time last year, are you: Wiser? Yup!! Healthier? I think so Richer? I don't really pay attention
17) What do you wish you'd done more of? Spend more time with Jess and show I cared for people more.
18) What do you wish you'd done less of? Waste my time at school with certain classes
19) How did you spend Christmas? With the huge el familya
20) Did you fall in love in 2008? Nope never have
21) What was your favorite TV program? I became a Hannah Montana Addict
22) Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year? Hate is for posers
23) What was the best book you read? Mixed Bags and the Bible
24) What was your greatest musical discovery? Skillet
25) What did you want and get? Closer friends, contentment, The best yet CD, and comfort.
26) What did you want and not get? for my friend to live
27) What was your favorite film of this year? Prince Caspian
28) What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you? Party at lala's and i turned 15
29) Which celebrity/public figure did you like the most? Jon Michael Summral
30) How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008? Borderline Scene but kicked back and comfy
31) What kept you sane? Jenna, Josh, Morgs, Yoshi, Jess, Lala, and Keenan
32) Who did you miss? Donna, Anthony, jess, victor, jessica, and nick.
33) Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008. God is the only one that truly gets me and truly cares and no friend could measure up to that.
34) What did you gain this year? Many eternal things
35) What did you lose this year? Friends and some things I held dear
36) Who was the best new person you met? Victor, Pancho, Josh, Keenan, and Morgs
37) Quote a song lyric that sums up your year. "I’ve spent so many nights wonderin’ when will it end. When will the day come when happiness begins? I’m running the race but it seems too hard to win, I’m sick of mourning my stomach is throwing up in the morning"

PARTTYY!!!!

I finished my portfolio!! Party guys with chocolate and gummy bears and Morg's. It's rockin right now cause it's finally over. I have 2 English portfolios done and 2 more to go before I can graduate! I am so glad though :)!!
Ps the guy at Kinko's totally gave me the look ;0)

Work

My job is wayyyy the best like you so can't get a better one. I have pictures to prove it too!

I let my students stand on their heads!!

I make my students into superheros

We make paper towel bandanna's and put our names on them!!

My Random Addictions

I have the weirdest addictions!! Creepy and totally awkward i promise.
Okay so one I am completely addicted to chocolate!! *high fives morgs*
Second I have this odd addiction to Lemon pepper! Don't know don't get it don't ask!!
Third I'd die without Dr. pepper!
Lastly I am addicted to swimming. I would do it for 2 hours every day if i could.
I am odd I know........

Military Update :)

Whew crazy time for my military friends!!
Nick: He went back to Texas about a week ago for more training :(. It has been hard and weird not having him here again I miss that guy. He's so strong though and he's doing really well. It is so cool that he hasn't changed any. Sure the AF made him stronger and more alert but he's still crazy Nick. That was super comforting to know that he was strong enough in his faith to stand still when things got hard.

Jess: She just got home last Monday from war and she has a couple of weeks here. She"s doing so well but she's going back again. It's so hard but I know she is glad this is where God wants her. That's also comforting as well as who she still is. It's funny cause war really changes people but she's doing real good!! =D

Victor: I wish I had a better report for this guy but things are hard. He's leaving back for more training in about a week and well it will be hard. He's not looking forward to it as they have raised the possibility of drafting him ASAP. I am freaking out to I am not ready to let go of him again! I wish he had more time here but than that would only make me want him home more. He's been a great brother ;) but things have changed him. He's just a much more military guy. I don't know how to explain it but he's seen the military and that changes a person. He's still my bro though and a he is so strong in his faith! I'll post more when he leaves.

I ask that you lift up not only these troops and servicemen but also all of the one's fighting for our freedom in your prayers.
Sincerely
Ayana <3

Dear Portfolio

I dislike you with a passion!
The thought of making you makes me sick!
I just want to be done but you are so time consuming!
You are picky and ask way to much from me!
Kinko's will hate me after this and it's your fault!
Your cover is gorgeous but that's because I was bored!
I don't understand the point of you!
Who invented you??
Why are you haunting me for all 4 years of HS?
WHY AM I STILL HERE AT THIS SCHOOL MAKING YOU??

Portfolio Countdown!

3 days 27 hours 14 min until it's due!!!

Supposed To Happen

Lately I have noticed in life we make plans of things that are supposed to happen and most of the time it doesn't work out according to what we want. Being okay with this is easier said than done. For instance Donna was supposed to aid me in my sign language class. I was supposed to help her in the Timothy American Girl class. Jess was supposed to attend my school and eventually graduate with me. We were supposed to finish HS together and not be separated until College. Seth was supposed to live a life with my family and not die so young. Hay and Seesaw were supposed to be home schooled their whole lives and not have to deal with their mom's death. However God's ways are not ours and as hard as that is to get sometimes it's the best thing for us. God's will!!!! So next time you find yourself thinking it was supposed to happen differently remember God has a plan. We don't get to see the whole puzzle of our life but he does and he is slowly fitting each of the pieces together to make one big beautiful picture. It's one of the hardest aspects of our christian life as we must wait and be patient with God. It isn't easy but one of the biggest rewards in the end when we see why God orchestrated things the way he did. Its a wonderful and beautiful thought........

Why is it that...

people find it so easy to break their promises?? I mean like nothing is valued anymore. I get it if something comes up that is legit but when it's not, well you'd better have a good story!! If someone promises they will do something doesn't it just make sense to follow through? I'm just frustrated and don't understand people.

Ohio is lucky...

Today that stinkin state got my beautiful best friend and I'm sad! Well at least she got there safely :). They got there today around 1:00 pm there time 10:00 am our time. I really don't have much on hows shes doing we haven't had much contact. Shes really sick and was just stoked to get out of the car so she probably slept a lot. She did say though today that she missed me :(. It's been hard I really don't know how to keep a conversation going. I don't want to talk about home because she misses it too much. I have asked her all I could about Ohio and to be honest I don't want to talk about that either. I don't want this to be happening but it is. It's like living something I never ever thought I'd have 2. This sucks it doesn't seem possible..... at all. Anyways sorry I'm blabbing I considered not posting this but I guess I should be real with my feelings.
Thanks

Portfolio's Stink!!

Nobody understands how immensely hard these stinkin things are! I am sitting here writing my evaluation blabbing about how much I enjoy my English class. COUGH! I just want it to be over actually. The best part is designing the cover and to be honest I could do without that too. I have skillet blaring in my house to keep me awake and I am on major yogurt land! The worst part is getting it bound! I promise you the people at Kinkos are like huh??? Am I really supposed to bind all this lovely stuff together?? Last year the guy left a page hanging half out and I was like exscuse me buddy that's like 40% of my English grade!! Now the portfolio sits at my house collecting dust. All that hard work for what? So that when someone from my family says "Hows school hon?'", I can be like here and drop it in their laps? I am not trying to be mean but what person from my school came up with idea of putting all of my English stuff together and getting it bound at Kinkos where the guys don't know what their doing. But hey I'l do it not because I want to though simply because I need a good grade. Im gonna go catch some sleep and hopefully be able to energize before going back to this ahem portfolio tomarrow.
Peace Out and Happy Portfolio Weeks :)

He's 4 Months....

Where does time go?? It feels like just yesterday I sat in the hospital waiting room all night awaiting his birth! Now Nathan is 4 months old!! It's so amazing watching my little man grow up. I love him to pieces!!!!!!!!! Here is the most recent picture I have of him.